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I am trying to remember.. as I am looking at your Picture.. I am Looking in the second Room.. sitting on the top of the desk is the Empty Vase.. as I am trying to Hear your voice.. Looking at your Number.. I am holding the Phone.. the Cell Phone.. but.. there is a sticker Picture inside the Cell Phone I have.. as I am looking at the sticker Picture.. there is YOUR beautiful face.. and I know that In this Cabin Log home.. why is it that I am in this House.. I am asking myself.. if I just don't remember any thing at ALL.. I have Lost the memories of Us.. and it is just killing me inside.. How can something like this be happening to Me.. and I feel so bad that I don't remember.. as I am looking at this sticker picture of YOU inside the Phone of the Cover.. I want to ask YOU about this.. so I am looking at your Number and I would push to Hear it ring through.. putting the Phone on my ear.. I am waiting for YOU to pick it UP on the Other side.. WILL you please hear me Outs.. and I wait.. as it keeps ON ringing and I hear Your Voice on the other Side.. I hear the word HELLO.. and I would say to YOU.. I see a Sticker on the cover of the Phone.. I want to remember.. but I feel like I am still stuck here.. I went to the doctor.. because I wanted to have some answers.. and the doctor keeps on telling me that I needs to wait for the memories to come Back.. but I feel like it is taking me just too long.. and I want to tell YOU.. what am I suppose to DO.. because I think it is Hurting me More as I keep on thinking about this situation.. will you Please help me so that I could remember.. as I am listening to your Voice and what YOU would share.. YOU are telling me about a Fair Park.. going to the state fair Park.. it was me who wanted to GO and it was I who asked you to Come to the State Fair Park.. and I am standing here.. trying to remember about the State Fair park.. also I won on a contest and got the Big Teddy Bear and we took a picture of it.. and as I am listening on the Phone.. YOU are telling me that the Picture is in the second ROOM.. and behind the Desk the Picture is there.. so I would walk over to the Desk and I would bend Low and go under the desk.. laying on the Floor and my hand goes to LOOK behind the desk.. I feel something and it is the Picture.. as I pull the Picture Down and I would slowly move out and I would stand UP.. as I would be holding One hand of the Picture.. and the Other hand is the Phone on the ear.. and I would tell YOU on the Phone.. I see the Picture.. I see YOU holding.. arms wrap around the Big TEDDY BEAR.. with a smile.. and above the Picture is another Sticker Picture and it is take of me.. and I am wondering.. did I also take a Sticker Picture too.. because there is One Above stick on this Picture of YOU arms holding around the BIG TEDDY BEAR.. and I would hear your Voice.. and I would say.. I wish I can remember.. but I am Not sure of this Place.. this is the reason why I should not of called YOU because Now I feel so bad.. I see that I have taken a Sticker Picture and YOU have too because I have a sticker Picture of YOU on the Phone Cover.. and Yes.. I went to the Doctor.. asking him why I just can't remember anything.. and it is making me feel so SICK because I have NO Idea.. I have No clue about anything.. I would ask YOU.. why have you chosen this Place.. WHY did I come to this CABIN LOG HOME.. is it because YOU want me to remember everything.. and YOU do know what the doctor said right.. did YOU know that I be memory Loss and would Not remember anything.. I even heard the Doctor said.. maybe I will never remember anything any More.. when the Doctor told me this today.. walking back.. leaving the Hospital.. I broke down in tears.. I just could not take it any more because think about HOW CAN I LIVE like this.. never to remember myself or even YOU.. did YOU even know about this.. and I would wait for you to say something.. your response and I hear your Voice on the Other Line.. and I would hear you say Yes.. that the Doctor TOLD YOU that in serious condition.. the Memories may Never come around and just to prepare for me to be LIKE a stranger.. as I be hearing this from YOU on the Other Line.. I want to Break my Heart into Pieces.. WHY.. why does this has to happen to Me.. if you knew what the doctor said to YOU.. why didn't you tell me.. if you knew before Hand.. you could at least tell me so that I would Not have to hear from the Doctor.. if I broken down in tears after leaving the Hospital.. and hearing the Word Never.. I just couldn't take it any More.. I know that YOU probably don't feel the same way too.. that is why I am calling YOU on the Phone.. that is why I called you so that at least YOUR voice can help me to remember something.. If I remain silent.. I know for sure I will Not remember.. that is why I am asking YOU TO help me to remember YOU.. I needs to know.. when I saw the Phone on the table.. and I opened and saw the Cover of the Phone.. something catch my eye was the sticker Picture.. and I would draw closer to take a LOOK.. as I would get closer.. I see YOU.. I want to say I love YOU.. did I ever told YOU that.. did YOU hear the words I love YOU and I miss YOU from me.. did I ever tell YOU that.. and as I would wait on the Line.. I would hear your Voice and YOU be telling me that I told you those two words A lot to YOU.. and I would tell you on the Phone.. then I believe I can start with These two Words.. can I tell YOU that I miss YOU.. missing YOU drives me crazy and YOU be telling me that YOU are going to come to visit me.. if YOU know where I live.. why don't you ever come visit me.. since YOU know me well.. of course even though I have this Memory Loss.. I still can take a look at YOU in person.. the More I see YOU in person.. the More I can see and I feel and hear YOU.. that way can help me more right.. Only if YOU want to show UP.. only if YOU want to come so that I can see YOU.. so Please stop by and show me who you are.. and as I turn around and I would walk away from the second room.. I walk to the living ROOM and there is the window.. I would look through the Window.. and I see someone standing Out side.. and I would walk a little closer to the Window and I see a Figure.. on the Phone.. My heart starts to beat Fast.. as I am looking.. is it YOU.. but I would not ask YOU that because I would only ask myself.. I am by the Window with my Phone.. and I see someone out side also with the Phone.. I am wondering.. if YOU have come to stop By and I would watch as the Figure turns away and starts to walk away.. and I am thinking it must be YOU who came to visit.. if you came this close.. why don't you knock on the Door.. if it was YOU would was standing Out side by the DOOR.. YOU know that I would of Opened the DOOR for YOU.. and Let YOU in.. I would ask you.. Please help me to remember.. YOU know that I feel like I am dying inside because I feel like a stranger to myself of NOT even knowing who I am.. DID YOU see me get closer to the window.. is that WHY YOU have turned away and has walked Off.. as I am hearing a Long Pause on the Phone.. I wanted to ask YOU if it was YOU who came closer.. came to this LOG CABIN HOME.. I wanted to ask if It was YOU because I saw a Figure.. someone On the Phone by the Door.. close to the window.. it was Only a Knock away from the DOOR.. you could of knocked.. and YOU could of showed me your Face and I could of saw YOU first time in person.. But.. why did YOU leave.. WHY did you have to walk away.. YOU know that I would let YOU come In.. my arms are opened to receive YOU and YOU are always welcome to come inside.. is it because of Me.. is it that the main reason why YOU have chosen to leave.. as I would say something on the Phone.. I would say.. are you still there.. and I do hear Your Voice and YOU are telling me that YOU needs to Go.. so I would tell YOU on the Phone.. Next time.. all YOU needs to do is Knock on the Door.. YOU know that I will answer and I will let YOU in.. and I would hear YOU say on the Phone.. and I would say.. I went into the second ROOM.. after YOU be telling me about the Picture of YOU holding.. arms around the BIG TEDDY BEAR.. it was a struggle for me to get down on the Floor to crawl.. hand grabs and pulls behind the Desk and I find the Picture of YOU.. I saw a Sticker picture on the corner of it.. that is why I asked because some one put the little sticker picture of ME on the top corner and I would hear your Voice say.. it was YOU.. and I would ask YOU.. who is the One who put this Picture Behind the Desk in the second Room.. and I would hear YOU say on the Other Line of the Phone.. that ONE NIGHT.. YOU came over.. and after the State Fair Park.. YOU wanted to Hide this Picture.. YOU would say that I just could NOT let this Picture GO.. and that I would always look at It.. of course it drove YOU mad and angry because it seems Like I would love this Picture More than YOU.. but that is NOT true.. why would I love the Picture More.. when YOU are BETTER to love.. better to Hold and to touch and to KNOW because when I hold you close.. I can feel my Heart be beating.. the SOUND of my Heart Beat is the reason WHY I love YOU and can say.. can tell YOU HOW much I love YOU.. but.. of course I do Love and enjoy looking at your Picture too.. it is because It is YOU.. why.. do you want me to LOOK at another person's picture instead.. of course NOT.. so YOU should be at least happy that I love YOU and that is why I love Your Picture TOO.. so.. because of this.. YOU wanted to hide the Picture and has Placed it in the second ROOM behind the desk.. and YOU be saying.. I started to Miss Your Picture for a while.. after YOU hid that behind the Desk and that is why YOU put a sticker Picture of YOU on the Front cover

Door if I was the One who loved YOU more.. if I can still love YOU.. I will.. if I needs to tell YOU that I love YOU.. I will tell YOU.. but YOU needs to help me first.. if you can only come back and return to the Front.. by the door.. by the window.. I know I be here.. ready to receive YOU IN.. you were so Close to the Door.. very Close.. if YOU can change your mind to return back.. I want to take you to the second ROOM.. I want to ask YOU about the Empty Vase.. it is so Beautiful.. but I want to know why is this Empty Vase sitting in the ROOM on the top of the desk.. WILL you please tell you what this is ALL about.. I want to Know.. because I been staring at it for a while.. but WHY DO I keep on looking at it.. does it has some means to it.. must be something because I would stand there and JUST look.. just stare at it like something is wrong with Me.. so Please come back.. and I will let YOU in.. as I am standing still.. I hear your Voice and tells me that YOU needs to Go.. and I would say.. WHY.. does that Means YOU are not going to come back around.. WHY are you leaving me like this Now.. if YOU came so Close.. why are you telling me you needs to go Now.. I want some answers that YOU KNOW.. because I believe YOU know what ALL these things are about.. so Please help me.. so that I can still keep on loving YOU where it needs to start again.. I just bought a New Home.. Leaving the City life into the Country side.. I am walking over the Mountains.. into the Hills and to the valley.. a Small Log House in the woods.. as I am walking through the Snow.. I stop to see.. the Flakes are falling from the Sky.. I am very close to the Log Cabin House.. Finally.. I have been waiting to get Out of the city life.. as I stop.. I am able to see the Snow flakes falling from the Sky.. as I unlock the Door.. and I enter the Small Log Cabin Home.. as I look into the Small Two bed room Home.. I am wondering.. why did I even buy a House with two rooms.. I have no one coming over.. but I know that If I prepare the place.. Maybe.. some one will show Up.. I have never met the person who use to Live in this Small Log Cabin house.. as I walk into One of the rooms.. There is a Desk.. I wonder why someone has left this Desk Behind.. something stops me before I turn to walk away.. I see something on the TOP of the Desk.. what is It.. I am wondering.. what is It.. SO I would walk closer to the Desk.. there is a Written Note.. and Next to the Note is a Picture.. of course I can only see the back of the Picture.. I am wondering.. maybe it must be the Picture of the Person who use to live in this Small Log Cabin House.. But why would some one leave a precious Gift behind.. if I lived in this House.. I know for sure I will Not leave anything special.. or Precious to me behind.. But.. should I turn the Picture over to see who this Person is.. I am standing there.. thinking of.. but I know that this is Not my picture.. WHY would I turn it over to look if it is Not for Me.. I am sure.. maybe the Person was in a rush.. and has forgotten to take this Picture.. but.. WHY would YOU write a Note for me.. I know that the written Note.. it is telling me.. giving me an instruction.. but why would you tell me something.. I can just live whatever I want.. I see the Note Next to the Picture.. Both are facing where I cannot see.. as I would stop.. maybe I should take a Look.. must be very important if YOU have written for the New Home Owner.. which I have purchased this Small Log Cabin Home from YOU.. I have never met YOU.. but Of course I do remember before the Contract.. YOU called me on the Phone.. and Got a chance to listen to Your Beautiful Voice.. Now.. I am very curious.. YOUR voice.. truly felt like I was listening to an Angel.. I know that If you sang a SONG.. I bet it would melt my Heart like the Snow Flakes.. I would stand Out side.. before I came to the DOOR.. to Unlock.. I would LOOK Up to the sky.. My hand opens.. I would watch the Falling snow flakes.. when It touched my hand.. it just melted and maybe Your Voice.. if YOU sang to Me.. My Heart can melt the way the Snow Flakes can melt into my hands.. I was smiling because I been living in apartment for a Long time.. just paying rent to rent monthly.. But.. Now.. able to purchase a new Home.. Out here in the Country side.. walking and climbing on the mountains.. just enjoying the fresh cold air as I would be walking through the Snow.. never felt so Alive in my life.. But Now.. I am here.. inside this Small Log Cabin Home.. and I just walked into a ROOM.. YOU did not take the desk.. there is a Picture laying on the TOP of the desk face down.. with a written Note facing down.. I am just wondering.. I remember when I picked UP the Phone.. and hearing your voice on the Other side.. on the Other line.. Your Voice.. it truly touched my Heart.. I begin to wonder more about YOU because of this Sensational touch.. Your Voice moved my Heart.. I felt it kick inside of Me.. and never felt that way before.. so I would start wondering.. I wonder How YOU would look.. as YOU were so happy to sell the House and even telling me Congratulation on the purchase of the New Home.. as I would share with YOU how I lived in rents all my Life.. but able to get a house means everything to me.. giving me a great deal in the purchase.. of course I wanted to ask YOU.. if YOU can sing.. because I wanted to know if YOU can sing.. can YOU sing a song so that I can listen to Your voice with my Heart opened.. but of course I never asked.. YOU probably think I am a crazy person.. as I am standing by the desk.. My hand grabs the Picture.. I wanted to turn it over.. I wanted to see the person who I just spoke with ON the Phone.. YOUR voice.. I just want to hear again.. can I listen to Your Voice.. would you let me call you on the Phone so that I can listen.. My Heart wants to listen to Your Voice again.. before I want to ask YOU.. I want to know how you look.. why are you so Nice.. why are you so kind to me.. I want to know who YOU are.. WHY would you leave this Picture behind if YOU have never met me.. if YOU have never seen me in person.. why leave me Your Precious gift.. Your Special gift.. I am nothing but a stranger to YOU.. what if I am a weird person.. some crazy person.. would YOU not be afraid of Me.. As I grab the Picture and turn to LOOK at it.. I see YOU sitting.. and My Heart jumps.. My Heart skips missing that Beat.. Just like Your Voice.. soft and beautiful.. I see your picture.. I see YOU.. YOU are so Beautiful too.. YOU are so Lovely.. feels like YOU can take my breathe way.. then what happens to my Breathe if you take it from Me.. what are you doing to me Now.. WHY leave this Picture behind and when I see this Picture.. I can feel my Breathe.. it wants to be released from Me.. I can't breathe.. my eyes wants to say I can't breathe because YOU are so Beautiful.. as I am looking at the Picture of YOU.. YOU are sitting down.. and I am wondering what is it that YOU are holding.. Why are you holding a Vase.. is it a vase for flowers.. I am not sure why YOU are leaving this Picture with Me.. what does it means.. why are you showing me this Picture for.. I have no clue.. I have no idea.. but why are you letting me see this picture.. and making my Heart to say I want to cry.. I have never met you before.. But How is this possible for Me.. why do I feel like I want to love YOU.. please tell me how can this be true because I have never met you before.. as I am looking at your arms holding this vase.. why is it empty.. are YOU not suppose to put something into that Vase.. it is an empty Vase Your hands are holding.. Please.. OH Please tell me what is the meaning of this because I want to know.. I have no clue.. I have no idea why you are showing me this.. I don't see any empty Vase.. but only this Picture.. with a Note.. so I would go over.. my hand grabs the Note and flips to look.. and YOU have written to me about the Picture.. and telling me about the Vase.. an Empty Vase.. and YOU have left it on the Other Room.. and I am not sure why YOU would tell me this.. what am I suppose to do with the Empty Vase.. I don't have any flowers.. and all it tells me to take good care of the Empty Vase.. and Now.. YOU are letting me to keep it.. so I am standing in this room wondering.. YOU are giving me this Empty Vase.. but I have no flowers to put in it.. so what am I suppose to do with this.. SO I would turn around walking out of this room.. the Other room is next on the right.. as I enter the second room.. There is another Desk.. and ON top of the Desk is the Vase.. an empty Vase sitting on the top of the Desk.. am I suppose to tell you something about this vase.. am I suppose to share with YOU what I want to do because it is Not making any sense with me a this Point.. I feel like I am Not the Owner of this House anymore.. since YOU are leaving things behind for me to take care of It.. I am not a male servant.. and NO.. I am not here to clean this House either.. I just purchased this House from YOU.. but WHY do I feel like there is a person who Owns it and maybe I am just renting this Place.. that is how I am feeling because.. I have to watch over things that does Not belongs to me.. I have brought my own bags and luggage so that NOW I can live in this house.. and I stand on the second room.. Looking at the Vase.. has water inside this Vase so it is Not completely empty.. but still looks empty to Me.. so I walk over to the second Desk.. I see a Picture with the Face Down.. so is it a Prank.. is this a joke because I am not feeling it at this Point.. my hand grabs and I turn to look at the front.. I see a Picture of a Heart.. as I am looking at the picture closer.. YOU have taken a picture of a Heart shape.. it is a Pillow I can see.. but why are you showing me this Picture.. I know that I love Heart.. but what does it means.. why are you doing this to Me

Young.. but it seems like YOU know me.. why would you tell me this.. Maybe YOU are writing to another person.. but then knowing that it is I who just purchased this House.. It has to be for Me.. who else lives in this House.. I am the only one who bought this House from YOU.. so I know that we met before.. and telling me when were young.. HOW long was this.. How old was I when I met YOU.. Please tell me.. and I am thinking about calling YOU on the Phone.. But.. I am Not just going to call YOU and say I don't remember YOU.. so How am I suppose to answer this question because I don't remember.. I am trying to go back.. way way way back to see if I do remember you.. I am closing both eyes.. Both.. Nothing I can see back then.. why.. when did we ever meet before.. I am looking at Your Picture.. the Picture of YOU holding.. arms around the Empty Vase.. and I would look at the Picture.. WHEN was it that we meet.. I have No clue.. Please give me a Hint.. I feel like I am a crazy person.. LOOKING at the Picture of YOU and just talking.. knowing YOU are Not going to answer back from It.. that is How crazy I am becoming because Now.. I am wondering.. when and where.. what age.. what school.. was it in the apartments.. NOT sure.. but Please tell me when because I truly want to know now.. I hate it when things are so mysterious.. I want to know.. YOU are the only one who knows that is why YOU are asking me.. what am I suppose to do and how do I say this to you if I tell YOU I don't know.. it can hurt you as much it will hurt me not knowing.. Please.. tell me.. give me a clue.. give me a Hint.. and I would put the picture face down on top of the desk.. I love YOU.. do you know that these three words Hit me.. when I did Not hear from you the past few days.. the Word I love you came into my Heart when I would remember what the Doctor Told me.. he told me something that YOU have not mentioned about and I just wanted to tell YOU this from my Heart.. that I love YOU.. and all I think of YOU.. YOU be in my Mind.. YOU kept on being on my Heart and ON my Mind.. Why can't I just erase you Off my Mind.. I can't.. Please tell me How.. as I am looking at this Cabin Log home.. I want to remember what happened to Us.. You have left a Message on the Phone.. and hearing your Voice.. I would listen to Your Voice.. stop and play over and over.. trying to remember YOU.. it hurts me More than it hurts YOU because I have found another Picture.. it is YOU holding a Giant Teddy Bear.. and YOU are showing me this Peace Sign.. and it is that Smile that Get to me when I take a Look into that Picture.. where was this taken At.. How can I forget.. and YOU are Not helping me in any of this.. why can't you tell me where was it At.. I dialed YOUR number and I called YOU on the Phone.. but YOU would not pick up this Time.. I started to Beat on my Chest.. and I sat on the Floor.. Looking at this picture of YOU holding the Giant Teddy Bear.. I have the first Picture on the first Room.. and there is an Empty vase in the second Room.. and I found this Picture on the second Room.. when I lifted UP the Empty Vase.. this picture was underneath it.. I remember buying this Home.. but I do not know who it was that was selling me this Home.. Just love the Wood areas and far from the city side of Life.. just wanted to live this quiet life until I heard your Voice.. and it was YOU who were thanking me purchasing this Home.. I wanted to see YOU.. I wanted to meet YOU.. but YOU told me that it is Not the right TIME.. I remember walking into this Log Cabin Home.. the House was empty.. but there was this scent.. this smell of a perfume when I went into this Empty house.. this Empty home.. did Not know where the smell came from.. I would walk Out of the House.. looking around.. I saw no one.. but this Smell.. where does this soft smell of scent came from.. Is it that my memories are coming back slowly because I think I smelled this scent before.. I am trying to remember this smell but I know that I knew this smell.. Was it YOU who came to this Empty Home before I came.. I am wanting to Know.. so much questions going through my Mind.. I want answers.. when I first Unlocked the Door to enter.. the Smell Hit me like the thin air of cold Icy air.. it hit me in such a massive wave.. I know that someone had to be here.. because I heard that It was a New Home.. or was It Not.. does this Home belong to YOU.. or was it Mine in the past.. Please tell me something because I would like to know.. I remember after leaving the empty Home.. I would take a Long walk a long walk alone.. I was thinking about YOU.. because I heard Your Voice.. How excited Your Voice were because I bought this Home.. as I heard YOUR voice after leaving on the Message.. I would be walking.. holding the Phone in my Hand.. Placing the Speaker close to my ear.. I loved hearing your Voice.. wondering How do you Look on the Other side.. wishing can I meet YOU too.. as the Cold Breeze Hits into the Dark night.. I would see the MOON appear before Me.. snow on the Floor.. and I kept on walking.. playing to Listen to your Voice.. Is there a way I can speak back to YOU.. is there a way I can call the Number and tell YOU what My Heart truly thinks of Your Voice.. of course I did Not see your picture around this TIME.. it was the first day after I came Out of the Hospital.. waking UP to a Coma.. but the Doctor telling me that I am good to go.. that I can walk well.. leaving the Hospital I went straight to the New Home.. which I was surprised of getting a Home in the first place.. a message and a Picture came on the Phone.. with the direction to the Location.. and I took the taxi and the man drove me there.. with the key in my hands.. I think the Doctor knew something but He did Not tell me anything.. just gave me the keys to the new Home.. I don't remember when I bought this House.. that is why I feel so strange walking into this New Home.. I am looking at the walls of the Room.. the second room I am standing.. my hand touch the wall.. I don't know what to do.. what am I suppose to say about this situation.. I feel so Lost and so confused because I am standing in a new Home.. but I don't remember any one of this.. I would look at the Phone.. and I am looking at your Picture YOU send me.. and asking me DO I remember YOU.. It hurts Me.. But YOU are so Beautiful.. YOU are so Lovely.. why are YOU sticking around towards a man who has lost everything.. I don't even remember right Now.. as the Doctor gave me the Keys to the new House.. He tells me something before HE let me go.. that there was someone who was here with me.. when I was laying on the Bed.. In the Coma.. for many days.. there was this One woman who came.. and YOU sat next to me while I was sleeping for a long time.. the Doctor said that I may Not wake UP.. but Only Time will tell but YOU came next to me.. and Would Hold my Hand.. and would come to spend next with me during the long nights.. and that when He.. the doctor comes to check.. YOU would be sleeping next to me holding my hands.. the Doctor looks over.. and sees tears rolling down my eyes.. and I think it is because of YOU I just could not GO.. I wanted to go.. go somewhere far.. but it was Your hands the doctor saw and How YOU kept on coming by my side.. until the Good news came that I was waking UP slowly from this Long sleep of COMA.. that is when the Doctor told me YOU came.. every night.. holding my hands and slept next to me.. and My tears.. I kept on crying because I wanted to GO.. I wanted YOU to let me go BUT your Hands would Not let me go.. Your TOUCH.. your hands which Hold my Hand tight and say YOU can't let me go.. I remember the day my eyes opened.. I was Not sure where I was.. of course it was that Accident.. and I would asked the Doctor.. what had happened to Me.. and How did I get here in this Bed.. the Doctor says.. it was a hit and run.. but I survived that crash which could of ended my life.. someone was drunk and hit the Car.. and He ran with his car.. and the Doctor showed me the Picture of my car which was crushed into pieces.. and I know that I have an Angel who was On my side.. that Night.. YOU came after the Police saw Your Picture on the Phone.. YOU were on the front of the screen.. and the doctor tells YOU the News.. that a big damage to my Head caused me to Loss some memories.. Maybe never I will remember YOU.. after I heard this from the Doctor showing me the picture of my Brain damage.. I cried.. I won't remember the Angel who was standing next to Me.. Holding my Hands when I was laying asleep.. I can this Happen to Me.. How can this One accident causes so much Pain in my Heart.. I want to remember YOU.. and I remember looking at the Phone.. which the Doctor gave to Me.. the front cover of the screen.. Your Picture was there and I would take a Look.. and I would say.. I don't remember YOU.. who is this person.. and It broke my Heart.. But has to be someone very special for to be in the cover of the screen.. the Doctor looks at me and tells me.. the One who was holding Your hands when I was asleep in the COMA.. it was YOU my Angel who came.. when I wanted to Go.. It was just too hard to stay alive.. I wanted to rest.. I wanted to go.. But Your Hands.. it was Your Touch.. your Faith that brought me back to where I can breathe Now.. and When I heard this from the Doctor.. I would cry looking at the Picture of YOU.. my Angel.. why can't I remember the Angel who stood by my side.. YOU could of ran too.. Just like I got Hit.. and some one ran.. even when YOU heard that I have this brain damage.. when didn't YOU ran with that.. as I sat there.. listening to the doctor.. which It was HIM who saw all these things.. and wanted to tell me that I have an angel

Situation.. it was YOU who was there.. and I wanted to say.. I love YOU.. even though I may Not remember YOU yet.. I still love YOU because I heard what you have did when I was left alone for the fight of my life in COMA.. as I am in the Second ROOM.. in this New Home.. I am looking at the new Picture I found.. YOU are holding the Giant Teddy Bear.. with a Big SMILE showing me the Peace Sign.. as I would look at the Phone.. I would press the Play to Hear your Voice.. it has been few days since you called me and left me the Voice Message.. I am wondering.. where are YOU at.. YOU told me that YOU are going to be calling me SOON.. if few days has passed by.. can I call YOU.. so I can hear YOUR voice.. I wanted to tell YOU that I love YOU.. SO.. what would you do if I call YOU.. and as I would look at the Empty Vase.. I know that I want to put something.. and I want to show YOU what I put into this Empty Vase.. what should I put so that I can show YOU.. can I put Your Heart inside this Empty Vase.. and I can take a Picture with the Camera on this Phone.. so that I can send it to YOU.. will you let me have Your Heart so that I can Put inside this Empty Vase.. I will show YOU a KISS on the Empty Vase.. my lips pressing on the Vase and Your Heart inside this Vase.. I will take a Picture on the side of it.. to Show YOU.. How much I love YOU by showing YOU that I love Your Heart.. I want your Heart close to me.. as much as my Lips kisses your Heart.. so Please consider.. as I am looking at the Phone.. I would press the Play button and I would hear your Voice again.. and I would sit on the Floor.. putting the Phone Speaker close to my ear to hear Your Voice.. it was a message You left few days ago.. but when Can I hear Your New voice Now.. I want to hear a new message coming from You.. I miss your Voice.. so will you pick up the Phone if I call YOU.. as I would send YOU a text message and I would send it to Your Number.. and I would sit and wait for Your response on the Other side.. and I get a Message.. a written text message back from YOU.. just did Not think you would answer back so quickly.. and I would call.. dial UP your number and let it ring.. few times the ring I would hear.. and I hear Your Voice.. and I would say to YOU.. I been thinking about the Day I woke UP.. waking UP from the Hospital.. and I would hear what the Doctor says to me.. that I wanted to say you are my Angel.. I wish that I can be an angel Like YOU.. so that I can be the One to make YOU smile More.. would you let me be an Angel for just One Day.. of course If you are wondering.. DO I remember YOU.. to be honest.. I am still lost.. Unable to remember YOU.. but I wanted to ask YOU something.. can YOU Please help me to Know YOU.. to find the Memory back of YOU.. will you please show me How to remember so that I can just love YOU the way YOU should be loved.. and I would pause.. and I don't hear any word from YOU.. but I do hear YOU saying.. Yes.. YOU were there at the Hospital and it was YOU who was next to Me.. but of course.. I needed to remember YOU first so that YOU can tell me More.. and it keeps on hurting Me.. it keeps on hurting me because I do want to remember.. I want to know what has happened.. about everything.. But.. if YOU are not going to help me.. How am I suppose to Know.. Please tell me.. please Help me so that I can feel what real Love.. what true Love is all about.. my Heart is beating fast whenever I would listen and hear your Voice.. but I want to love YOU and say it Like I mean it because I know that I do love YOU.. that is why I am asking YOU to help me to find the way.. so that I can be in your Heart.. and YOU in my Heart as I remember everything about us.. I am looking at your Picture.. looking at you smiling.. I just wish I can remember this Place.. I am wondering.. who is the One who has taken this Picture.. I know that someone had to stand on the Other side.. and had to look through the lens of the camera.. and just focusing on YOU.. and had to click to take that picture.. as I am in the second room.. looking at the Vase.. the empty Vase.. and looking at your picture.. I wish that It was me.. was it me who was standing on the Other side.. was it really me?? YOU told me that I was with YOU.. and that YOU asking me if I remember any of all these things.. why is it so Hard.. it is so difficult on my part because I want to go back and remember all of these things that has happened.. but the More I am trying to think about YOU.. the more it seems harder to remember these times.. and the Voice.. Your voice I hear when I am talking to you on the Phone.. when YOU call me.. and I would answer.. I am wondering How did I get into this House.. because I just don't remember.. I even saw few people walking in.. the Movers with their truck.. putting all kinds of things into this House.. how did these people got here.. I have so much questions.. but I know that it is you who are putting all these things through.. I am standing in the second room.. looking at your picture.. the only One thing that I can look through.. but I just want to remember YOU.. How did we meet.. How did I fall in love with YOU.. what happened.. I know that YOU told me I got into the car wreck.. could of died in the accident but I guess just the Life that is still in me.. I should be truly thankful to be even alive.. as I am looking at your picture.. I can hear The Phone ringing.. and I see your Picture I have put on the Phone.. and it shows me who is calling me.. as I would pick up the Phone.. putting against my ear to listen to Your Voice.. I wonder.. are you ever going to show UP.. are you going to stop by to visit me.. can you please Help me to remember more about YOU.. because YOU are still a mystery to Me.. I needs to know more.. I needs to ask More.. I want to find out more about YOU.. but.. I know that YOU don't say too much.. why are you being like this to me.. YOU are the one who calls me.. but never say too much.. WHY.. Please tell me what is holding you back to say.. I know that YOU want to say something.. please tell me.. Please tell me because I too have an ear to hear your words.. only if YOU can share and express what is deep in your Heart.. I really wants to know.. and I am looking at another Picture.. this Picture is a Heart.. a red Heart.. why did YOU place this Picture next to Your Picture.. what does this Heart Picture means.. what are you trying to tell me.. Are you telling me that YOU love a Heart.. or trying to tell me that YOU have a Heart.. or are you asking me DO I have a Heart or do I love a Heart.. I must know why.. why put it next to your Picture on the second room.. as I am looking at the two picture on top of the desk.. my hand holding the Phone.. I can hear the breathing.. can I ask YOU something.. WHY is there a picture of A Heart.. who has taken this Picture and why did it be placed in this Desk and I would hear you say.. that I would Love the Heart.. and I am standing here.. with a Question Mark.. that I love a Heart.. does that Means it was me who has taken this Picture.. I know that the first room.. it has a Bed and on the top of the Bed.. I saw a Heart.. it was a pillow Heart.. and It was Me who has taken that picture.. but why can't I remember.. I don't remember taken any picture.. and I would think back.. a little flash back.. I see you sitting on the Top of the Bed.. your arms holding around the Red Heart Pillow.. and I would hear you even tell me the same thing on the Phone.. that one night.. I came into the first room.. and YOU were sitting down on the top of the Bed.. and I would stand and I would watch YOU.. your Arms around the Red Heart.. telling me that YOU love red Heart.. and would smile as you would squeeze it.. and YOU put on the bed next to YOU.. and I would walk closer.. hands holding the camera.. and I would put my eye close to the Lens of the Camera and ZOOM closer.. and snap Shot taking a picture.. and as I put the camera down.. I would turn to look at YOU and I would say.. I want this Heart.. But I want your Heart like this.. can I please have your Heart.. would you please give me YOUR HEART because I truly need it.. I want to have It.. Have your Heart.. and I would see you smile as I would turn to walk away from the first room.. as I am standing still in the Second ROOM.. I am able to get or catch a glimpse.. I think little by little.. things are coming that I am beginning to see something.. Still I can't remember but the little pieces of puzzle like.. I feel like YOU are truly helping me to find YOU back to my Heart.. I know that I loved YOU once that is before the Car accident.. I still can feel inside that I still love YOU.. when YOU are telling me these things on the Phone.. YOU are helping me because without YOU.. How can I know.. it is what YOU know that is bringing things back.. but slowly it is taking a long time.. YOU know that I love YOU.. I have never stopped loving YOU.. only YOU can bring my Heart to be alive.. Only YOU can help me to love YOU once again because I never stopped loving YOU.. as I would turn away.. my Hand holding the Picture of the Heart.. the red Heart.. I would walk out of the second room.. I wonder if I can see Your Heart.. I want to know the color of Your Heart.. would you let me see the color of the Heart.. does it look like this Heart.. the red Heart in the picture.. would you let me see the Color of Your Heart.. because I love this red Heart.. as I would walk out the front door.. it is very cold outside.. and I am standing.. with the Jacket on.. I walk to the front.. LOOKING at the flurry of snows falling from the sky.. and my Hand.. holding the picture of the Red Heart.. I would lift up my arm.. and I can see the Picture.. I lift to see the Red Heart in the Photo.. I want to see your Heart.. I want to touch Your Heart.. I want to know and want to see the color

Waiting for YOU.. when are you going to come.. I don't want to take the picture of the Red Heart because it is only a Pillow that is laying on top of the Bed.. what I truly want now is to look at your real Heart.. to see the color of Your Heart.. to take a picture of Your Heart.. and I want to ask YOU about the Vase.. the empty Vase that is in the second room.. I have all these Questions that Only YOU know.. only the answers you can give.. but I do not want to hear Your Voice.. even though I love hearing your Voice.. I want to see you in Person and to hear from YOU.. so that I can be near YOU.. only if YOU can come.. come visit me.. help me to know what this is all about.. because Only you have the answers I am looking for.. Only if YOU were here.. if you were close by.. and if YOU can come out side.. there are flurry of Snows falling from the sky.. it is so beautiful here.. it is so beautiful because when I see the flurries of Snows falling.. I am thinking of YOU.. wishing that It be YOU who is here and looking at the Picture of the Red Heart.. just imagining that this is You.. I am missing YOU.. only thinking that I wish YOU be here with me.. and looking at your real Heart.. I want to see your real Heart.. love your Real Heart.. can I take a Picture of Your Heart.. so that I don't have to look at this Red Heart anymore.. let me take a peek of Your Heart so that I can love and tell you how much I love you.. as I would walk back into the house.. all I wish is that YOU are here.. all I wish that YOU can be in this House with Me.. helping me to know what I am losing.. because I do not want to lose you.. I know that if I can't get the memories back.. what I am afraid is of losing YOU.. what If you stop calling me.. what if YOU tell me that YOU are moving On.. what if YOU tell me that YOU are tired of waiting for me.. what if YOU tell me Not to love you any more.. that is why I just can't lose YOU.. as I am walking into the first room.. and I stop to turn to look at the Bed.. the Phone on One hand.. and the Picture.. the Red Heart in the Other hand.. I am looking at the Bed.. I see the Red Heart.. it is laying on top of the Bed.. I put the Phone close to my ear.. I want to tell YOU.. I want to see you here.. It be nice to see you sitting on the top of the bed.. I want to see you Holding.. your arms wrapped around the Red Heart.. would you please come and let me take a picture of YOU holding the Red Heart.. I have the picture of YOU.. YOU are so Beautiful with a lovely smile.. I have the picture of the red Heart.. but what I am missing is the picture of YOU holding this Red Heart.. to fill in the missing link.. if YOU can come.. come and visit just for one day.. so that I can take this one Picture of YOU.. I want to take that picture.. your arms around.. holding and squeezing this Red Heart.. and What I will say.. DO I love YOU.. the More you can hold your arms around the Heart.. the red Heart.. I will say that I do Love YOU.. please squeeze my Heart.. Please Hold My Heart.. if you don't.. then I am going to be the one to hold and squeeze your Heart and I will tell your Heart.. please love Me.. Please can I tell YOU that I love YOU.. Please just love me.. love my Heart so that I can tell your Heart.. that I love YOU.. Now I am missing YOU.. missing this One picture.. YOU are holding the Red Heart.. only YOU can hold it while I take the picture of YOU holding it.. Please.. tell me.. give me a clue.. give me a Hint.. and I would put the picture face down on top of the desk.. I open the door.. comes into the House.. I see large boxes.. two Large boxes enter the first room.. and another two Large Boxes places in the second room.. I see couch.. I see tables chairs.. More boxes comes into the Log Cabin home.. on the Diner room and the living room.. into the kitchen.. I see the Movers walking in and Out of the home.. as I watch the movers walks.. they enter the truck and it goes.. I would be out side.. it feels so good when it is cold.. with my jacket.. I am standing out.. I watch the SUN goes down.. still the SNOW on the ground and I am looking UP to the Sky.. Night Comes and I am looking at the Moon.. I don't know why I think of YOU the most.. especially when I see the Night.. when I look at the MOON.. I start to think of YOU.. do I miss YOU.. I am thinking right Now.. Do you think that I miss YOU.. if you ask Me this question.. standing Out here in the cold.. watching the SUN setting.. as the Wind starts to blow.. the wind chill makes me shiver.. that is how I feel when I think of you.. I get these cold chills.. sending shivers down my spine because I do miss YOU.. feels like when I walk Out.. and I look Up at the Sky.. looking at the MOON.. it is how I feel when I miss YOU.. that I want to see that MOON because I know that down in my Heart.. I think of you the most when I do see that MOON.. do I smile.. I want to smile.. because all I do is smile when I know that YOU are in my Heart.. that you are IN MY MIND and in my soul.. just can't stop think of YOU.. I would look at that MOON.. I am trying to think of the past.. when was the last time I seen YOU.. that I do miss YOU.. I miss YOU more and more.. as I turn to the direction.. I am looking at the door of this Cabin Log Home.. my hand grabs on the door knob and I am wondering.. I have lost my memory.. but I want to know.. I want to know how much did I loved YOU.. YOU would not tell me how much.. if YOU knew me before I lost my memory.. would you not tell me because I asked YOU.. I asked you on the Phone.. How much did I love YOU.. I would wait for your answer.. I just don't remember because I do want to remember.. I asked YOU.. but why can't YOU answer me.. YOU told me that I did Love YOU.. I asked you the question.. DID I love YOU?? there was a short paused.. and a breathing I heard.. I asked YOU the second time.. DID I love YOU?? Please tell me that I loved YOU well.. did I love YOU the way YOU should be loved.. I wanted to know.. I kept on pressing to ask and asking YOU.. I was holding onto the phone.. just waiting for YOU to answer.. there was a short pause and I heard you telling me.. I did love YOU.. and I do remember I just could not say another word.. My Heart.. for some reason it started to Beat faster.. Like I would be running and slowing down trying to catch my breathe and when I stop for a break.. My Heart would beat as like the beat ran faster.. that is HOW My Heart felt when I heard YOU telling me that I did Love YOU.. of course I want to love YOU.. I want to keep on loving YOU.. and I asked again.. How much did I love YOU.. can YOU please tell me.. if YOU answered the first question.. I know for sure you can answer this One.. Please tell me so that I can hear my Heart beat faster when YOU give me the answer.. I heard YOU not say a word.. but why.. YOU told me that I did love YOU.. why couldn't you tell me More.. I want to know.. if YOU can remind me.. maybe I can know.. maybe my memories can come back to Me because I did hear my Heart beat faster when YOU answered the first question.. I really Really want to know.. as I am standing by the door.. MY Hand grab hold unto the Door Knob.. ALL I need to do is turn it and open the door.. I can go into this Log Cabin House.. this New Home that I brought.. before the Movers came.. I do remember One large Box came before the Movers brought many boxes.. smaller and larger into this New Home.. One Large box.. I placed into the ROOM.. the first room.. I do remember opening the top of the Box.. I saw a Picture frame.. it was YOU inside the picture frame.. YOU were sitting on the Couch that just came into this New Home.. I don't remember YOU sitting on that couch.. but YOU were holding the vase.. placing on top of YOUR Lap.. the same Vase that was in the Second room.. but there was a Stem of a Flower.. YOU were smiling and I looked at it.. I don't remember any of it but tears.. there were two lines of tears falling down from my eyes.. as I would look at the picture frame.. inside the picture of YOU siting on the Couch.. I felt so sad because I.. I want to know when was this taken.. I want to know who has taken this Picture.. was it me who was holding the camera.. It must be me because I do know that I loved YOU.. and if that couch came as the Movers brought them into this New Home.. it must been a previous time.. which Home.. whose apartment.. if that Couch belongs to me.. then was it at the old apartment.. was it at a Home.. I just can't remember.. Please help me to remember where and when.. from WHO.. I know that it must be me.. because this One Large Box came yesterday night.. and I brought it into the First ROOM and I opened it to see.. So I know that it belongs to me.. I started to cry when I saw the Picture Frame.. My Heart was shattered because I want to remember.. I want to know when and where it happened.. I know that It was me who took this picture.. why would the Picture frame with YOUR Picture comes inside this Box.. but who had this is the Question on my mind.. was this Box with YOU.. are you the one who send this Box to me so that I can remember.. I did Not want to call YOU.. I knew that YOU wanted to know something but right Now.. I just can't tell YOU because I don't remember.. as I would reach.. my Hands grab onto the Picture Frame.. I am looking at it.. my tears kept running down my cheeks.. I want to remember.. I want to know.. But I do not want to tell YOU anything because if I don't know.. the way My Heart is breaking right Now.. you can feel the say way too.. I looked at the Phone.. I wanted to dial.. but I told myself I am not going to call YOU.. if I don't remember and has NO answers.. I just can't.. if Tears are flowing down my eyes.. I don't want to imagine Your eyes with tears.. If I loved YOU and My Heart still loves YOU.. I just don't want to hurt YOU.. I rather be the one

MAH MAH.. I am standing in the training camp.. and I see you coming over from the Fence.. the Big Crown on the Top of your Head.. and the White Dress.. as I see you walk alone.. YOU take my breathe away.. and I can feel my Heart beating so fast.. and as YOU come to meet me in the Center of the training camp.. the New Recruits.. over 200 men are standing by.. as YOU stop.. in my hands is the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. and I am standing looking at YOU as I am looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing of YOU.. I do not need this any more.. but Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. YOU have to always remember that when you were Never around.. this was the Only THING that Held my Heart because whenever I missed YOU.. this was the Only thing that helped me through the way.. When I was left alone for a Long time.. this was the Only thing.. it may Not be anything special to YOU.. It may not be any of the importance to YOU.. YOU may just look at it as a paper.. that someone drew long ago.. and it may only seems like the past piece of Art.. but to Me.. it has many memories of loving YOU.. many Memories of Looking UP at the Moon.. standing Alone in the Nights.. there was SUN.. but also there was the MOON.. there was a time when Winter came by and it be very cold outside.. when times I saw the falling of the rain.. when I lost my Father.. and I felt my Heart broke all the way.. when I could Not see YOU and even the BOY who drew this Picture.. How he had to sneak into the Palace gates and How from the Far he drew YOU.. who got caught and arrested.. He was beaten and Put to death.. telling me that this is for me and knowing that HE wishes that My Dreams came true and that ALL this did Not mean Nothing to Me as he died by the Sword.. Even the Older MAN.. who was the teacher in my Life saw this Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing Picture of YOU who knew WHO you are.. but told me to GO.. and to Protect YOU and to defend the Nation which it belongs to YOU and this Art Sketch paper.. the drawing picture of YOU was the main reason WHY I could go On.. when I was at the Garden.. and I saw YOU there for the first TIME.. I wanted that Boy to draw.. of course I knew it be just too late to call HIM.. when I saw YOU by the gates of the Garden and I walked Out and saw YOU.. I wanted to ask YOU.. Can you Please draw another or Give me another Picture from the Art Sketch.. but.. when YOU left.. Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABIN MAH MAH.. the Day you left the Garden is when I knew the Only thing I had was this.. and my arms would lift as my hands are Holding the Art Sketch paper.. the Picture drawing of YOU.. it was only this I had because I knew.. I was Not sure if I could ever see YOU again.. when I would see YOU again was my thoughts.. going UP the Hill and standing by the tree below was the Garden and Across I would see the palace.. and Knowing that is the Place where YOU at.. I wanted to Go.. I wanted to be close to YOU.. but what if I am NOT ALLOWED to get in and be put into the Prison instead.. But.. I made UP my mind.. I can die tomorrow and I will say I love YOU.. I can die the few days Later.. as Long there is still a Breathe IN me.. I know I can still Believe in Loving YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. and I do remember leaving the Garden after I made UP my Mind.. in the Snow walking and knowing How cold it was.. and knowing I could die A lot sooner.. I felt the Last Push of my body as I kept on walking through the SNOW.. I was thinking of YOU.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I am not sure How much More I have in Me.. But I will still try to go to YOU and I kept on walking in the Snow and I felt my body.. it could NOT go no more and I fell down in the Snow.. I kept on thinking of YOU until the last breathe saying I am so sorry I might Not make It.. As I was on the Guard.. watching the Post at Night.. and How I became the Palace guard guarding the back gates.. I do remember pulling the Art sketch paper.. the drawing Picture of YOU.. and LOOKING.. I been needing to LOOK.. thinking of YOU.. saying to this Art sketch paper.. the drawing Picture of YOU.. YOU may not hear my voice be telling YOU but I say it as I look at YOU.. that I love YOU.. do you know How much I love YOU and I would hold the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing Picture close to my Heart.. to my Chest.. I wish that I be holding YOU instead but.. it be this paper instead.. someone telling me that Behind me is the Chamber of Your ROOM.. and I remember I turn back to LOOK.. I saw YOU.. looking Out from the patio of the Chamber of Your ROOM.. the MOON was Out.. I would LOOK UP at.. I would say MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. can YOU see me.. I am here and it has been such a Long time coming.. and Now.. I know that I do Not need this Piece of Paper.. the Art Sketch paper any more.. I want to see YOU take this from Me.. Now I am here close to YOU.. I told the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. Once I meet YOU.. I can Now send it away and give it to YOU because it belongs to YOU.. it has come to the right Person WHO I love the Most.. so Please take this from Me because I am giving YOU my Heart.. My Heart is in it because it is YOU who I never forgotten.. and I see YOU LOOKING at me.. as I am on two Knees.. My Head is Looking on the floor.. my arms raise with the Paper.. the Art sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. Please take this From me because I don't need it any more.. why do I need it when I see YOU here.. there is NO POINT for me to have because it is YOU.. I see your hands take the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. and my tears.. it starts to flow Out of both eyes of me.. I can finally let that Piece of Paper GO and allow the Boy to finally rest in Piece.. the Seven Friends of Mine would walk together and they would all stand Behind.. the two Knees and Heads look on the floor.. arms straight Out.. and I see YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABIN MAH MAH.. Now One of the Guards comes and has a Torch in the Hand and Gives to YOU.. and I see YOU Burn it with the Fire and It becomes the Ashes before my eyes.. I just can't believe It.. and as I see YOU looking down.. I see you with a SMILE.. and I smile back because it means everything to Me.. YOU are truly everything to Me.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH means everything to me.. and I hear something.. I hear foot steps walking.. and I see you Crown Princess turn Around and Comes.. the 2nd Rank General is coming.. and there is Seven Other Lower Generals walking behind Him and the Eight stops next to YOU.. the 2nd RANK General with the seven generals all goes to the two Knees.. Heads all lowers looking to the floor.. Arms come out straight forward.. and I see YOU LOOKING at HIM.. pulling Out your Sword.. the 2nd Rank General speaks to YOU and it is about Me.. and How he knows me.. He has beaten me before.. and Now.. wants to fight me.. and YOU would turn to LOOK at me.. and Point the sword at Me.. I lift UP my Head and I look over.. and I DO remember.. MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABIN MAH MAH.. I will accept the Challenge.. and I see YOU walk back and as I am looking at the 2nd Rank General.. I remember when I first Came to the training Camp.. when He just became the General.. and I just got into the camp.. as I would stand UP.. the Seven of my Friends all stood behind Me.. and the 2nd Rank General Stands UP.. and the Seven of the Lower rank Generals all stands UP.. and I would look at HIM.. and I would PULL out the sword.. and I knew that He beat me Once.. and I would say.. YOU did WIN last time.. but this TIME.. it be very Different.. and I would turn to LOOK at YOU.. and I raise UP my arm and the Seven Friends all would back way.. and the 2nd Rank General PULLS out his Sword.. but this time.. it is NOT about WIN with the sticks.. it is all about the Sword.. DO or DIE.. and I would run.. holding with the Sword in my hand and I jump into air and I would swing my arm holding the Sword and jump up again shouting louder and swinging the arm with the sword in my Hand.. as I am In the Line.. the Guard at the Table looks and YOU.. the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I just can't believe that it is YOU.. and as YOU stand by the table.. YOU look at the two Letters.. one is the Official Seal with a Stamp of the Name of the OLDER MAN.. the Commander of the King.. PEH HA.. and the Other is the written Letter from Me giving to YOU through the years what I had to deal to get to YOU.. and I see you reading the Letter.. the New Friend was with me and He also gives the Official Seal with the stamp of his Father.. the Commander and I am holding the Sword of my Grand father and the Friend is holding His Father's sword and YOU look at the two swords and YOU look at the Guard to let us inside.. and I just cannot believe it.. it has been this Long.. and Now I am here.. I am at the Camp.. this training camp Only the YOUNG NEW RECRUITS can pass the exam of the military Arts.. but by the seal.. the official Seal and stamp.. and I would fall.. both on my two knees.. with the New Friend.. both on the two Knees.. heads are looking on the ground.. and arms straight forward.. CROWN PRINCESS.. we are here.. have made it to the Camp.. I thought I had to wait another Year.. but even Next year would be NO Promise.. since the Line is so Long.. Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABIN MAH MAH.. I just wanted to say thank YOU.. and I see YOU stand.. in your hands are the Official Seals and stamps.. as YOU would pull out the sword and Point to me.. I would lift UP my Head and I turn to LOOK at YOU and I would say.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. why did YOU not come to the Garden.. DO you know that I been waiting

MAH MAH.. Place.. I saw a WHOLE NEW WORLD because it was YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABIN MAH MAH.. who rescued the Broken and Lost.. the Poor people and has rebuild everything into something New.. I saw re building of the Garden.. I wanted to see YOU.. Crown Princess.. I wanted to see YOU.. I would wonder.. where is the CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. without YOU it would never been re build at that Garden.. Lives changed because YOU came.. sick people became healthy and they started to eat well.. Planters and farmers came together.. giving a New Life of meaning to Live.. I sat.. and I was looking for YOU.. But YOU never came.. because YOU did Not come back to the Garden.. and I wanted to say something., say thank YOU.. but YOU never came that is NOW I have come.. NOW I have come to protect YOU and to defend YOU.. LOOK at the Official Seal.. and LOOK at the Stamp on the Paper I gave YOU WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. the Older MAN.. the Teacher who taught me for Many Years.. He told me that He fought for this Nation.. with My Grand father.. together as Brothers At War.. they both joined hands together and has protected your Father.. the KING PEH HA.. He is the One who taught me through these years of the Art of Swordsmanship and to shoot arrows and TOLD me stories of the Battles He had to face.. many died by the Sword of His with my Grand father's sword too.. protecting this NATION and to protect.. the Teacher knows that I loved YOU.. I showed HIM the Art Sketch paper.. the drawing Picture of YOU.. I showed him that Picture.. drawing picture and that I wanted to be the ONE to protect YOU and to defend the Nation.. and the Older man.. the Teacher started to show Me how to WIN the Battles of the War because He has experienced and has passed DOWN the Knowledge and the experiences to me with his Son.. Now I came here for this very reason.. TO protect YOU and to defend the Nation and to tell YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS how much I love YOU..I want to see you Success.. My Heart as the Loyal Slave.. as the Servant.. as the Low Born which My Father was the Head of the Servant.. as I am sitting in the Small room.. the Older Man.. the Teacher gave me a small table and I am with a Paper.. with the Ink I would write to the Crown Princess.. MAH MAH.. I have been living in this Place.. the Older man who has become my Teacher has told me that He wanted me as the Son.. so I have become his adopted Son.. and He has been teaching me for Years.. and I would be looking at the Pen Brush and dip into the Ink Pot.. I have never stopped dreaming of YOU.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I have been practicing the Art of Swordsmanship.. and Also the Archer Shooting.. the Older man who has become the Teacher.. He would spend Hours helping me to learn this Military Arts and has told me to write a Letter to the Crown Princess.. so I am about to leave this Place with the Official Letter which was sealed with his Stamp allowing me to step Out and go forward.. telling me that through the Years.. He has watched me grow my skills of the Art of swordsmanship and the practice tactic of the Military Arts and with this Official Letter seal that I am able to pass over and go into the Training Camp without going into the training ground.. He has revealed to me that He was an EX COMMANDER for the King.. he was at the Most Highest Place in the ranking of the Office in the Palace and showed me the sword of which He has won many Battles for YOUR FATHER the KING PEH HA.. I was shocked when I found this Out because He showed me the Sword.. which he took many lives and He knew my Grand father who was also the Chief General.. who also became the Commander and was Brothers in War and together they led many Victories in the Battles when Enemies rose against the Nation.. the Teacher told me.. the Older Man who is my teacher told me that I must Protect YOU.. and also Needed to defend because HE remembers you.. He knows my father who was the Head servant and saw YOU when YOU were Young with my Grandfather and knew.. Later down the Line.. Both would say.. the COMMANDERS would say YOU are going to rule.. that YOU are going to be the Head of the Nation.. that YOU are the next in Line to be at the RULING SPOT.. that YOU are going to be the QUEEN KING.. the Ruler who rules it all.. and when the Older man.. the Teacher saw me with the Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing of YOU.. he looked at me and asked.. and I told the Teacher.. the Older man who you are.. I told Him.. I love YOU.. and that the reason why I am here.. and that the reason why I am going to you has never changed in my heart but keeps Loving YOU.. the Older man.. the teacher said to me.. CROWN PRINCESS right.. I told him.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I sat next to HIM and told him the story of How I saw YOU.. where I met YOU.. and it was at the Garden.. and how you came to visit the Garden One Night.. I already had Your Picture then.. the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU.. I heard the men servants walking.. with the Many Foot soldiers.. the Special Body Guards and the Guards who all came that night.. I heard a Voice.. I was in the Garden Looking at the Bed of Flowers.. and I heard a Noise.. a shouting and there was a gate I would open to LOOK.. sitting on the Horse.. YOU were wearing a White Dress.. I was holding the Art Sketch paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. but did Not know that it was YOU.. the MEN Servants looks at me.. the Crown Princess.. and I just could not believe.. from the Palace.. who is going to rule and be the Head over the Nation.. I am at the Most Lowest Place.. the SON of the Head servant.. and I fell down on my face DOWN and I would say MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I am so sorry I did not Know who YOU are.. and the Guards rush and fell on fours and Your Legs on the back of a Guards.. the maid servants who came to rush for your hands and helps you to walk.. every one went FACE DOWN to the Ground.. I just could not believe it.. why would you come to this Garden.. it is only for the Poor and the Lowest people who lives here.. why would you care for people who are born into the Most lowest comes to a shabby place.. I felt my Heart.. My Heart started to beat so fast.. and I saw YOU stand and stopped next to me.. the maid servant tells me that I can raise UP.. and I was able to stand before YOU.. YOU are so beautiful.. and One hand I had a Flower.. the Other hand is the Art sketch paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. and your eyes were looking at both hands so I would raise it up to show you.. YOU looked at the Art sketch paper.. the drawing of YOU.. the Maid servant looks at me.. and the eyes told me I can be in danger because of this.. and I remember I told YOU this very night.. if I have offended you HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. if YOU want me to rip this Art Sketch paper into pieces.. I can do it for YOU.. if you want me to be Locked in Prison and I die for this.. I can die for YOU.. before you make up your Mind to do something please let me share something from my Heart.. I am Not afraid to Die.. I am always ready to die.. I will anyways die either Now or Later but I still will die.. but one thing that I wanted to say.. I been loving YOU for a while Now.. it may not be much to YOU but this is ALL I have to have to Love.. if you want to Lock me UP now.. Please CROWN PRINCESS.. Lock me UP now.. and I saw YOU just looking at me and gave me a smile.. and I remember you wanted me to see the Garden.. and that was the day I would walk next to YOU to give you a tour of this Garden.. which it was to show YOU in the first place.. I told my Father when he was alive that I wanted to do something to this Garden.. and showing my Father the Art sketch Paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. that I know that the Crown Princess may stop by one day.. HE looked at me like I am very crazy.. I would beg my father to help me to making this Garden to be a special Place.. what if the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH shows UP.. I believe the Crown Princess will come.. and My Father who was alive at that time laughs at me.. the ROYALITY and the Palace Life.. this is a SHABBY Place.. only for the Poorest People stay here and I would cry before HIM asking HIM.. to Help me to rebuild this Garden.. I know that the Crown Princess.. as I saw YOU with the White Dress.. I would stand with in awe and My lines of tears ran down because YOU did Come.. I just could not believe that It would happen because it just Can't but that Night.. the Night MAH MAH came.. I fell in love with YOU harder because that is when I knew.. you also cared about the poor people.. the Lowest of lives who lives here.. people who has no place to stay or to live.. as the gates OPENED and I would walk with YOU next to me.. the Crown Princess.. I just knew that YOU were so Special.. that YOU were so different because YOU even came here.. the POOR people all came Out.. NO HOMES.. living in straw homes.. people were dirty and smelly.. and I lived with these people.. but when YOU showed UP.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and YOU looked around.. and people all came crying.. and they fell on the Face Down.. MAH MAH.. CROWN PRINCESS.. MAH MAH and I fell on the Face on the Ground and I started to SOBB.. crying and pouring out from my Heart.. and I was thinking about my Father.. if you came a little earlier.. My Father could of believed Me because he left to another place.. and I just could Not believe to see your Big Heart for these kinds of people.. the Lowly people

MAH MAH.. Friend.. the two of Us got on the Horses and we took Off.. as I am waiting in the Line.. with the new Friend.. He also has a Letter given by His Father.. and I too.. a HORN BLOWS and ALL the Men in the Line all lowers.. two Knees.. Heads lower and the Arm straight forward.. the Messenger Shouts Out Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH is coming.. and I stood there.. My Heart starts to Beat faster after I heard you came Out.. and I saw YOU from the Distance.. and I went on both knees.. Head down and Arm straight forward.. I just can't believe.. thinking of the Older man.. the Teacher.. who taught me everything.. swinging swords and defending.. and when I told the past story of How you came to the garden to the Poorest People living in the Garden.. and he started to cry.. That is why YOU are going to RULE the Nation.. that is why YOU are going to be the NeXT BIG RULER.. because YOU love and care for the people.. and my tears started to fall hitting on the Ground.. I saw YOU walking down.. from the distance.. and How much I missed YOU.. and it was so Long since the last when we were young.. I remember at the Garden.. you saw the People.. POOR children walking and YOU looked around and people gathered around YOU.. sick people came too.. and I heard you telling.. to rebuild this Garden.. and I stood.. face down to the ground and kept on crying.. and Now.. I know the true reason why I loved YOU and still loving YOU keeps on growing stronger each day passes by.. it is because YOU care and love.. even the broken people.. even a LOW person like myself.. I.. my Words are so speechless Now.. My Words can't come Out right now.. and I lifted UP my Head and I looked straight.. there is guard siting at the Table.. who is telling the MEN to go.. that it is finished.. and has to wait for the Next Year around.. as I am looking at the Two Letters.. and the Friend who is with me.. My Heart breaks.. I really wanted to see YOU Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I really wanted to tell you who I am.. the boy you saw at the Garden.. I have grown Now and came to protect and to defend YOU.. NOW I must have to go back and wait another year.. and as I would turn to walk away.. a Guard runs and stops Me with the friend.. and I would show the Guard the Official Stamp Letter.. the Seal from the COMMANDER who was the CHIEF in the military Arts.. and the Guard just could not believe the seal.. and He ran with the Official Seals.. and YOU were standing by the table.. and the Guard shows YOU.. the Letter and the Official Letter seal.. and YOU do know this Commander.. He was at the TOP of his TIME.. who was protecting YOUR FATHER the KING.. PEH HA.. the Guard comes to get me and the friend.. and We both would walk behind the Guard.. and I lifted UP my Head and I see YOU there.. I see you standing and waiting by the table.. and I started to cry.. showing YOU the JOY and the sorrows and It has been such a Long time.. but YOU are so Beautiful.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. you are so Beautiful.. I am looking at the rain falling down the Sky.. looking across.. I see the Door where I sleep.. it is opened.. the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU is inside that ROOM.. I needs to go and get it.. My Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABIN MAH MAH.. Your Picture.. the Art Sketch Paper.. when I was Young.. the paper that YOU gave to Me.. I had to get the permission from the Artist Boy who drew that Picture of YOU.. I remember he told Me.. if He gets Caught drawing the Picture.. If a Guard catches or Any Officials who works for Your Father the King.. PEH HA.. he can be Put to death.. but He went and drew that Picture for me.. I saw Him get caught.. He was dragged into the Prison.. I could Not believe what has happened to that BOY.. who died for drawing the Picture of YOU.. I remember the Night I went to visit Him. My Father was able to get Me into the Palace.. being the Head servant who was serving YOU.. I went with my Father.. I saw Him siting alone.. and it just broke my Heart.. He told me.. it is because it is YOU.. the Crown Princess.. it is because YOU are MAH MAH.. the HAWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. any ways He was poor.. living as a Homeless street.. as I hold his hands to thank HIM.. he looked at me and told me.. I have A Dream.. as Long as I have that Dream to conqueror.. to be by YOUR SIDE.. MY CROWN PRINCESS.. MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABIN MAH MAH.. who I loved and to serve.. and to Protect.. and told me.. GO ALL IN.. even if it gets me Here like this Young Boy.. it be worth Dying for as long as I can try my Best to get there.. and I cried Loud as He told Me.. Chase my Dreams and Let it come true.. Believe In It.. and something BIG.. GRAND can happen in the end.. I saw the Guards with the Keys.. Unlocks.. AND It was His time to GO.. I screamed Let HIM LIVE.. He did Not do any wrong.. what is Wrong to and the Guard struck me.. I fell and saw that Boy being carried away.. I get UP.. and I ran.. ran after the Guards WHO was taking HIM away.. my Father ran after ME.. grabbed me and told Me.. I will see him again.. and I stood there crying.. as the Boy disappeared into the Night.. and It was raining.. I saw the RAIN falling and I would Cry Out in Loud Voice wailing.. Crown Princess.. WHY is Life Not so fair for the POOR people.. small people like Us.. it is no Fair and I am wiping my tears with my Arms.. and as I am sitting down.. I am crying Looking at the open Door to the Small room.. that Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU is a gift.. the Price has been paid.. some one had to die just to draw that Picture of YOU for Me and It died.. and the Older Man.. the Master.. he has the stick.. holding it UP.. and there is the stick on the ground next to me.. I want that Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. the Cost of Losing a One's Life.. and it is YOU.. My Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH and I grab the stick with my Hand and PULL myself UP.. and my eyes looking at the Older MAN.. and he yells Out Loud and swings the Stick at me and I would go back.. the waters makes me slide back and I would yell in rage and I jump UP with the stick In my hand and I swing the stick and it hits the Old Man's stick. and I jump Up again and swing right left left right and I land on the ground and did a back Kick and Hit the Master on the middle.. and I jump Up again swinging the stick in my hand with full of Rage.. I want that Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU and swinging the stick in my hand left right right left and It knocks the Stick Off his Hand.. and I do a round house kick to knock him on the Ground.. the Older Man.. He is laying on the ground.. as the rain Keeps on falling down.. and I stand holding the stick in my hand.. I am crying.. Just Missing YOU.. wanting to be with YOU.. but Look at me.. I am here stuck Out here.. ALL I want to do is just to see you for ONCE.. But the situation is Not helping me to go anywhere at this Point.. WHAT DO I do Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABIN MAH MAH.. the Older man.. the Master gets UP slowly.. and he stands looking at me.. and I see he leaving out of sight.. as I would LOOK at the Open Door to the ROOM.. the Small room where I rest.. and I go inside.. and I am looking.. the Art Sketch Paper.. and drawing Picture of YOU.. this Means everything to me.. I remember putting this Art Sketch Paper.. drawing Picture of YOU.. Putting in back of Me.. walking In the Snow.. all alone.. Not knowing where I was going to go but I even had to leave the Garden.. I told myself.. that I am going to go where YOU are.. Crown Princes.. as I would grab hold onto the Paper.. the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. I told YOU through Looking at this Picture.. Someday I will get Close.. even though I may be far right Now.. I know that One day I will see YOU.. I will be close so that YOU know how much I love YOU.. and the Sword.. by the time I see YOU.. I am going to be holding a Sword in my hand.. and the Sword I hold.. it is going to Protect YOU.. my Sword that I have with me will always protect and also defend for YOU.. I will be a man of my words who will do whatever it takes just to be close.. even though I may not able to say the Words I love YOU.. I know that the day will come where YOU will give me the Permission to say it.. as the Next Day Arrives.. the Older man.. the Master.. He put a DUMMY made of WOOD.. Carved it and gave me the WOODEN SWORD STICK to practice.. every Night.. I would walk Out side.. He would should Me the PIN POINTERS where to Hit the Hot Spot to destroy my enemies.. I would stand Alone.. and Most nights the MOON came UP from the Sky.. the Older man.. the Master would behind.. leaving a distance.. as I would hit the DUMMY WOOD with the WOODEN STICK SWORD.. I would be looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU.. I would hold to close to my Chest.. and I would kiss the forehead of the WANGSEJABIN MAH MAH.. MY CROWN PRINCESS.. and I would walk outside into the Night.. LOOKING at the MOON.. I would say.. I will see YOU SOON.. it may seems like a long time Now.. the Older MAN.. the Master tells me.. it be a lot sooner because I am thinking of YOU.. that I have a Dream to Love YOU.. but to Protect.. and to defend YOU for a cause for this Nation you are building.. that I know I needs to be there to see YOU as My True QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I want to see YOU as you take your place of Your Father's Spot.. to RULE this NATION as the CONQUEROR.. I want to be there to see with my own eyes before I die.. I can't not delay.. because I want to see YOU soon.. and I would be thinking of YOU.. thinking of protecting YOU and also defending

MAH MAH.. Master looks at me.. He tells me.. it is time for me to GO to see the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I would stand there as he gives me the Letter.. stamping with the seal for His NAME that I am His student.. I would stand IN the ROOM.. as I am looking at the Letter with the STAMP SEALED.. I would sit.. LOOKING at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU.. I sat alone.. crying.. It means that I get to finally see YOU.. I have made the promise.. DO you remember.. and I am LOOKING at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. WHEN we were Young.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. YOU came to the Garden.. and I was at the Top of the Hill.. By the tree.. visiting My Mother's grave.. I was with my Father and he wanted too tell me a story.. and I heard the Messenger as he was going Up on the Hill.. and it stopped my Father and we turned to look back.. the Messenger says the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABIN MAH MAH is coming UP.. and Me and My Father.. Both on the Knees Looking on the ground.. YOU came to us.. and it broke my Heart when YOU told me.. it is going to be hard for you to come to this Garden.. and before YOU are going to come the One last Time.. a Prince is going to show UP for the Last time.. and I knew what that meant.. I remember that Day Came.. YOU showed UP with the Prince who wanted to Marry YOU.. My Heart was breaking into Pieces when He came with YOU.. but I made a Promise to YOU.. and that promise is that I will still love YOU.. and that I will go to serve.. and to protect and defend YOU.. even if it means that I can't Love YOU.. but I asked YOU.. can I still Love YOU.. WOULD YOU let me still Love YOU.. but I do remember YOU looked the other way.. WHEN I saw you with the Prince at the Hill top by the Tree.. I did Not want any one there which it was my Mother's Grave.. I just could Not believe it had to happen.. when I think of it Now.. I have never given UP on that Promise.. as I was in the Small ROOM.. holding the Letter with the Stamp sealed of the Older Man.. the Master.. and On the Other Hand is the Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. I don't have anything.. I have Nothing really.. But I do have this Heart.. a Heart who never seems to stop but Keeps On loving YOU and I am going to go to YOU.. I will be close to YOU and show YOU.. I am a MAN with a real Words who will do what I will say because I love YOU.. and as I hold the Letter.. there is a servant who belongs to the Older man.. the Master and he became my friend.. and that He too wanted to go to the palace life.. just to protect and the defend for YOU.. as I am looking at the SUN rising UP.. watching the New Recruits of Young Men.. I see YOU sitting on the Horse.. on the White Dress.. but this Time.. YOU have came Off from Sitting and I see YOU walking.. with the Big Crown on top of your Head.. and I turn to LOOK.. with the Seven men.. the friends of Mine.. we turn to face YOU.. and I would say.. SALUTE.. and all of the Men.. even the New Recruits.. More who even joined into the training camp.. ALL goes on the two Knees.. Arms moves forward.. and Lowers the Heads together and I see YOU stop.. MY Heart starts to beat Faster.. as my Heart keeps On running.. ALL these men.. New and Older.. the Military and Generals.. Commanders and Chief Generals.. ALL down on two Knees.. I would pull the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. the Young Boy who drew this Picture of YOU.. as I am looking at it.. My eyes.. watery and fills with Tears and I can feel my tears running Down as I am looking at this Picture.. the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU.. as YOU pull out the Sword and YOU point at Me.. and I lift UP my Head looking UP at YOU.. My Heart breaks because I do remember this One Young Fellow.. He told me that as Long as I keep dreaming.. and Dreaming of Just Loving YOU.. and to follow my Dreams and my Heart towards YOU.. that One day.. something Big.. something Grand will Happen.. I did Not know what that Meant.. But Now I know what it is Like because I am here today still Loving YOU.. I had no idea why was that young boy saying this to me.. that is before he died.. I saw the Boy's body on the back of a wagon being carried.. on the streets.. a HAY was covered over.. I ran to look at the wagon being pulled by the Horse.. when I stopped.. uncover the STRAY HAY covering.. it was the Same young Boy who gave me this Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU.. and I would with both hands show YOU.. HWANGTAEJABIN MAH MAH.. and I see you walking closer and YOU stopped.. and YOU looked at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. it is this Picture I kept all of this Time and Just could Not let It go.. But Know I believe I can because my Dreams of Loving YOU and coming this Close.. It has been kept alive.. I want YOU to do the Honor to Burn this For Me.. because Now.. I realize I don't need this One Picture because I see YOU Now.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I am close to YOU NOW.. I love YOU MORE NOW.. so I don't need to go back because I am Now living in the Present.. going forward with YOU to future HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. ALL I want to say to YOU.. I still Love YOU.. I never have given UP that Hope and dreams of Loving YOU.. I hope that NOW you can see my true Heart.. the real Heart of Mine who never stopped Loving you this Far.. all I wanted to say to YOU CROWN PRINCESS.. I love YOU.. I walk out the room.. Pulling out the Art sketch paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. and I just can't stop.. I been thinking of YOU a lot lately.. and I needs to go see YOU.. but How.. and as I am standing out.. I would turn to the Left.. I see the Horse.. and it belongs to the Older Man who teaches me.. maybe this time.. and I would look at the Art sketch paper.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. YOU know that YOU may Not see me.. but I will be at the Palace.. I will only be like a Shadow.. like the wind.. YOU can't see Me.. but YOU know that I am there.. knowing because I love YOU.. and I would Fold the Art Sketch paper.. the drawing Picture of YOU in my Back.. and I would walk.. I stop by the Horse.. and I would get back on this Black Horse.. I would hit the Horse likely and the Horse starts to RUN.. as I am riding on the Back of the Horse.. feeling the Wind in my face as the Horse keeps On running down the Road.. all I can think of is YOU.. the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. even though I may not be close.. even though you may Not see Me.. I know that as long as I can see YOU.. just seeing YOU from a Far is all I can ask for.. even though I may Not be able to say or tell YOU what My Heart truly feels or expresses to YOU.. as Long as my eyes sees that YOU are doing good.. that is ALL I am asking for.. the Horse keeps On running down the road.. all through the Day.. I see this Horse.. this Black Horse keeps on going.. it feels Like me.. Just cannot stop but keeps On going.. as I would watch the SUN Setting down.. when I look on the side.. I see the waters.. and the Horse would run slowly as it stops.. I give this Horse.. the Black Horse some rest.. I get Off the Horse.. Now.. as I would walk close to the waters.. there are group of guys by the waters.. and I would turn to look at One of the guys.. and I would stand still.. as I would pull the Art sketch paper.. the drawing Picture of YOU.. I just can't stop thinking of YOU.. and it is killing me inside that I can't be close to YOU.. Now.. one of the guys.. he comes closer and takes a LOOK at the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. and Looks at me.. and I tell Him.. Yes.. the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. if YOU are asking me.. I am a Low Born servant.. and I know I can't even Look at YOU.. the Crown Princess.. who am I to love the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I know that I am Not suppose to ever put my eyes on YOU.. and the penalty for getting caught is Death.. even though I know that If I break this Law.. But.. if YOU take a LOOK at me.. I am already Dead.. so I have No more fear.. I have already broken this Law and just ready to Die any time SOON.. but what can I do.. if I love YOU.. is this My fault.. How is it my fault if My Heart is the One who is causing this Kind of trouble.. this Kind of problem in my life.. I am just going what My Heart truly Needs.. and the Guy looks at me.. He works at the Palace.. and He is the Palace Guard at the Door.. and I just could Not believe.. he came just for a break with Other friends who works at the Palace.. they are all guards at the door.. and I just could Not believe.. He is going to help me to take to where YOU are.. tells me Not to tell any one because.. My Heart.. WHICH only Loves YOU.. as I would watch the waters on this Night.. I just could Not sleep.. but.. for the Longest time.. it has been so long since I saw YOU.. it is a Picture of YOU when YOU are YOUNG.. Now.. the Guy who came with his friends.. one of them had an Art Sketch Picture.. but it is the recent Picture some one drew.. and the guy's friend showed me.. as I took into my hands.. YOU just blew my Mind.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. YOU have become so Beautiful.. when did YOU grew UP looking so Beautiful Like this.. and as I am looking at the Art sketch Paper.. the recent drawing of YOU.. My eyes could Not Help.. but my tears.. it just could NOT let it sit and I felt.. my tears just ran down as I am looking at the recent Picture.. the Art sketch paper.. the drawing of YOU.. and I am wondering.. the Guy looks at me.. even his friend Loves YOU too.. I am thinking.. I know there must be More but.. it does Not matter with me.. as the Sun starts to rise.. the Guy.. he came with

MAH MAH.. Into the back gates they go.. as the Horses all slow down.. the Guy who I first talked too.. He gets out of the Horse and He points at the Chamber on TOP.. that is where YOU are.. the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. the Other Guard tells me that YOU are not there.. that the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. is at the training ground.. and HE is the One who leads.. as I get off the Black Horse.. walking across on the Other side.. and there is the Fence.. as I walk with the Other Guard.. I would stop.. from the back.. I pull out the Recent.. Art sketch Paper.. the drawing Picture of YOU.. as grown.. I just can't believe you have grown this Much.. so much Prettier and never imagined YOU be this Beautiful in my life.. Now the Other Guard stops and looks back.. I just can't believe.. I am going to see the Crown Princess.. do YOU not see this.. LOOK.. I am at the palace.. and going to get to see closer LOOK at the HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. it is Like a Dream come true.. I was truly worried about.. How am I going to see YOU.. I know that I have No business at the Palace. NO guards are going to let me In but.. it is a true Miracle that I am here.. and get to meet.. the Other Guard looks and smiles.. and He turns to lead the way.. as I am following HIM.. in my hands.. I am holding the Art Sketch Paper.. the RECENT drawing picture of YOU.. and I see the other Guard.. He stands by the fence.. and He stops.. and I am walking.. my Heart.. It is beating so Fast.. why do I feel so excited.. why is My Heart beating.. is it beating or dancing from the Inside.. and I stop by the Fence.. and as I let down the Art Sketch Paper.. the Recent drawing picture of YOU.. I see YOU stand there.. the Other Guard points.. that is the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. who is in control in that training ground.. and I see YOU from the distance.. and there are many MEN.. the new recruits as YOU are the One over seeing and teaching them with the Stick.. and My Heart.. Are you really holding the Sword.. the way of the swordsmanship.. as YOU turn toward the Fence.. YOU see two men.. and YOU stop.. showing the form of the Arts of swordsmanship and LOOKS.. as I see YOU looking at me and the Other guard.. It just can't be.. is it really YOU.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and of course YOU don't know who I am because it has been such a Long time I saw YOU.. and I would kneel.. two knees.. and the Other Guard kneels with me on two knees.. Head Looks on the ground.. arms forward.. and I see YOU are coming.. walking over to the Fence.. and I just can't look at YOU.. why can't I breathe.. why is it so Hard for me to breath and YOU stop by the fence.. and the Other Guard would answer YOU.. and YOU turn to LOOK at me asking me.. and I would lift UP my Head.. and I would LOOK at Your eyes.. DO YOU not remember Me.. right Now I am at the Older man's House.. he is my master my teacher at this Point.. but.. YOU don't remember Me.. and I see YOU looking and with Question.. it is me.. at the Garden.. when YOU came Long ago.. when we were younger.. and my Father who was the Head over the servants.. who served the King but was servant to the CROWN PRINCESS.. which is YOU.. and my Hand went back to Pull out the Art sketch Paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU.. and I lifted it UP before Your eyes and I see your hands grab hold unto.. DO YOU not remember this Picture.. this Art sketch paper.. the drawing of YOU.. when we were little.. before YOU left.. I asked a Boy.. and HE had to get your Permission.. and YOU allowed that BOY to draw YOU and the Boy would give me this Art sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. the boy say.. I am good to have this Picture.. the Art Sketch paper.. this drawing picture of YOU.. by the tree.. before YOU told me that YOU could never come back to the Garden.. that WHEN I grew to be older.. for YOU to know.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. YOU told me to bring this to YOU so that YOU will remember who I am.. and it was YOU who allowed me to have this.. to keep this.. that one day when I come to this palace.. when I bring this to show YOU who I am.. YOU will know that it was ME.. the lowly born servant at the garden who never stopped Loving YOU.. I came all the way just to tell YOU that I have grown.. and YES.. that I am going to enter the king's service and to Be a Palace Guard.. so that I can come close to YOU.. to protect YOU and to defend this nation.. I told you this when I was little.. when I was young.. I told YOU.. before YOU left for good.. I told YOU I promise I will come.. and as I am LOOKING UP at YOU from kneeling on two Knees.. YOU looked at me.. the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. and I see your smile.. so YOU do Remember everything right.. it is that Boy at the garden.. who wanted to give YOU a flower.. Now.. it is Not just a flower.. but I will show YOU a SWORD to protect YOU and this Nation.. and will FIGHT on your Behalf.. the Other guard looks at me.. and As I am looking at the New Recruits.. I would look back.. and I see the Seven Friends who are behind me.. there are two who has been there for me all this time.. the Other Guard who lead me to YOU.. and the First Guard who talk to me at the waters.. Who has been helping me to get closer to YOU.. and as I would LOOK by the Fence.. I see YOU.. the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. as I am holding the stick in the Hand.. telling me that I should train these new Men.. the YOUNG MEN who are the recruits.. and as I would pull back.. I would pull the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. it is when YOU were Little.. the Boy WHO gave it to ME.. who told me that I have the Permission from YOU.. the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. LOOKING at the Tree.. by the Garden.. I am always thinking about the Garden because it was the first TIME.. when I saw YOU coming.. riding on the Horse.. YOU wanted to see How the Garden feels.. it was when I saw YOU there.. when I started to LOVE you at the Garden.. as I am looking at one of the new Recruit.. He looks at me and swings the WOODEN SWORD at me.. and He misses as I go back.. with the WOODEN SWORD stick I am holding.. I would swing Forward and It hits the new recruit and He falls to the Floor.. to the ground.. I am looking at the Moon.. I just wish that YOU know my Heart.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I know that I can't go with you right Now.. Because I want YOU to be at the Seat.. to be at Your Throne.. to Rule over and to take the seat that belongs to YOU.. and I am standing by the tree.. on the Hill side top.. looking UP to the sky.. Looking at the stars shining across the sky.. MAH MAH.. I remember when I first stood here.. running UP the Hill when I was a Young Boy.. My Father was standing next to the tree.. and I would yell out loud.. and my Father smiling looking at me Running UP to him.. and I am holding the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. and I would show my Father.. and He looks at YOU.. that is the Princess.. CONG JU NIM.. after My Father passed away.. I remember walking UP the Hill side.. and I would stand next to this Tree.. and I am holding unto the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. and I would turn too look.. I can see the Palace.. It seems so Far away.. and I would be looking UP to the sky.. Looking at the stars shining above me.. and that Moon.. it has never seems to change.. it would appear the same way as being a Young Boy.. But I still had hopes and dreams.. that One day I am going to see YOU.. that One day I am going to hold your hands and to stand by this Tree.. the same tree I would run up and down.. many broken hearts.. broken tears I would cry.. I would be shouting Loud.. Looking across.. Looking at the Palace.. WHY did you have to come into my Heart MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. why do you have to live In my Heart.. it hurts because I love YOU.. I know that I should be more happier than ever to Love YOU.. but instead.. many nights I would shed these tears.. feeling so Lost.. feeling so lonely and just to be loved.. Will the Princess.. CONG JU NIM.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU MAH MAH.. will you ever see my through.. would you ever see my Heart.. can YOU feel the Heart.. the One Heart that I have kept inside which weeps most of the time.. missing YOU.. wanting to be close.. to get close.. to Love YOU.. to held YOU in my arms and to tell YOU.. whisper in your Ears How much I love YOU.. and I would watch the Night.. wondering can My voice ever be heard.. I don't care.. as long as YOU can hear me.. if I tell YOU that I love YOU.. will you want to hear my words.. my voice of telling YOU.. I can tell YOU thousand times.. but will you want to hear it over and over and over again if I tell YOU that for Me.. it is the greatest pleasure to tell YOU from My Heart because I know deep within me I love YOU.. I would even stand by this tree.. when I saw the dark clouds gathered.. I can hear the roaring of the Thunder knowing that it is going to send rain.. showers and heavy rain down on me.. I would watch and wait.. as I feel the wind changing towards me and I start to see the rain drops.. falling from the Sky.. I would be standing by this tree.. Looking across.. looking at the Palace wondering.. If I go to YOU.. will you open your arms out to me.. will you tell me MAH MAH.. I am able to come to YOU.. will you allow me to step into that Palace.. and I would be wondering.. How do I get to that place from where I am standing.. I want to Go.. I want to run to YOU.. I want to be where YOU at.. If I go.. will you accept Me.. will I be invited to stand close to YOU.. and I would start to watch the rain fall.. Looking at the Art Sketch paper.. the Picture of YOU.. I remember it was after I saw YOU coming to the Garden